05/18/26 - What are you capable of if nothing was in your way?

05/20/26 - You could not handle me at my silliest, so you cannot handle me at all.

06/25/26 - What do I want to share with the world?

07/08/26 - I have not been dealt this hand, so I will not play it.

07/13/26 - I don't think there is enough male sensuality. I think there is a severe lack of it.

07/16/26 - I think people wonder, when I say I left social media and Youtube because of its excessiveness, they think, "Oh, are you going to stop reading books because the library is huge?" No. The hugeness is not what bothers me. That actually intrigues me about most media. I will never run out of things to consume. My thing is that a book will not interrupt me halfway through reading it to tell me to vote for a candidate or buy a product. If it starts, I will stop reading and make my own books. A children's book will not track me, determine that I am a child, and then decide I cannot write books. A book can consume hours of my time, or minutes of my time, and I can stop any time. Usually I don't want to, but there's a certain comfort in a bookmark, knowing you can come back to it, instead of making the videos so short you have to consume it now, or so long it feels like a daunting task. And the quality of those videos have decreased so much, I feel like I am being brainwashed. I can read a bad book and be unsatisfied, but there's a certain pleasure in determining why I was unsatisfied. It lets me think. There are millions of books about millions of topics, and despite the grasping of control over the medium, for the most part, I can pick a book on whatever I like, and not have one chosen for me based on what I've liked to read in the past, regardless if I would like it or not.There is no control over books and writing. There is control over social media. I want no part in it. My joy in exploration has been overtaken by the comodification of myself and my relaxation, and until it is fixed, I will have no part in it.